Christmas Day....

I know by my previous post that you can tell how super excited I was that Christmas was coming. Saturday we enjoyed going to Jesse's cousin Erica house and watch everyone open gifts and ate yummy food. Sunday we went to our second place to enjoy family time with the Thiels. Then Saturday night around 11pm I got the call.....my grandpa wasn't breathing and he had died. By the time we got to the hospital it was Christmas Eve and we pronounced. We waited for all our family and then went in to say goodbye. I still can't believe it happen. I kissed and Hugh Pa goodbye for the last time. The man who watched me when I was little and took me to Mother's Day out, taught me so much about life, came to all my school functions, who taught me to be unselfish and kind, made me drink my milk before I could get a coke, got me watching soap operas (general hospital), made sure we never missed an episode of our favorite cartoon Count Duckula, always winked his eye, whistled, made the best roast and jam, had an amazing garden, taught me to bleed blue but not forget to respect the ppl who bleed red, listened to music, master at his yard and garden, took us fishing, loved hunting, enjoyed everything with a smile, and made everything special and magical. One of my memories I have of my Pa was sitting outside in his yard when I was little as telling him what I was going to do with my life. He laughed when I said I'm going to have my husband take his muddy boots off. lol! Which my hubby to be does do! I have so many wonderful memories. I just hope I never forget them, his smell, or voice. If we made mistakes my grandma and him were always so forgiving. I had been in a unhealthy relationship and he was so beyond happy when I found Jesse. He loved Jesse just as much as me I think even though he was a uofL fan. We caught a catfish on our first fishing trip and we took it to my grandpa who loved it! He also came and helped us with our garden and said how proud he was of it and we picked berries together that he just made jam out of. I will miss him so very much. Christmas was his absolute favorite time the lights, music, and of course loved the kids opening gifts. It is such a shame he missed Christmas although he knew this would be his last. I always knew this day would come but I wasn't ready and don't think I ever really will. A little piece of my heart is gone but is filled with his spirit. We will bury him Thursday. I think I'm still in shock though. Please pray for my grandmother who lost the love of her life. She too is just as wonderful as a person as my Pa.

Rest in peace my Pa--now you can do all the things you always loved to do. I will love you forever and always.